A new road or a Secret Gate?

We all have reasons to give up, but we have many more reasons to keep on going!

Music has always been a huge part of me and who I am. I love singing although I suck at it but I know it brings me happiness…

Yesterday, my heart shattered though.

The news about Chester Bennington from Linkin Park created a hole in my heart.

This band was an enormous part of my H.S. years… Chester was my “Secret crush” and yes I tried to reach those notes of his, but never did. I remember one day blasting them so loud that my mom said “what are you listening to now?” – I didn’t answer but she didn’t turn it off.

I know right now it just sounds like i’m mumbling but honestly, I am still shocked. I teared up on the drive to work while Z-100 was playing back the interview with Chester from February 2017. How can so much talent be now gone? Why couldn’t anyone help? More and more often, suicide is taking over and although we see the signs after, why don’t we see them when they are asking for help?

Today, it was clear that we need to pay more attention to the signs. To the people that open up to you and although maybe not directly, they are asking for help. Be there, don’t just hear them but listen!

Here is my interpretation, the signs from the song “Heavy” and yes, maybe we saw it as one more song with such impact and amazing lyrics but surely never realized that perhaps this was his way of him reaching out one last time…

I’m holding on
Why is everything so heavy?
Holding on
So much more than I can carry
I keep dragging around what’s bringing me down
If I just let go, I’d be set free
Holding on
Why is everything so heavy?

You can decide to take a new road and different approach at life or follow the secret gate. So in conclusion, pay attention, smile at someone, be kind and listen to your heart. If you or anyone around you needs help, reach out… Don’t be afraid.



Rest in Peace – Chester…